Do not ithrow away your confidence;
it will be richly rewarded.
You need to persevere so that
when you done the will of God,
You will recieve what he has promised.
Hedrews 10:35-36

Feeling....up and down (Life sux)

A few thing happend this week that make my feeling goes up and down so sux. Got part of my insurance claim, study was okie starting to get used of the travelling distance, something happen to my motor again, still need to wait for 20 day to get the stupid hand uncast, thing that plan out did work out well, went for a funny moive, bought a few present of friends, dont feel like going out, need to see doc again later of a stupid letter inorder to claim my insurance, need to go to study again, need to buy season parking of motor, need to get my motor repair, need to...........

FROZEN QUEEN/ KING
You dont want love to come through to you. You like
it the way you are. To be unreachable, no need
to show feelings. Hiding everything inside you.
You are already used to it. You say yourself
that you dont need anyone, that you stand on
your own two feet or that you dont have time
for these things. But in reality you are scared
to get hurt. You feel save where you are: by
yourself, nobody can hurt you there. You
invent your own relationship in your dreams.
You just need to know that you COULD get a
partner.
Thats it.


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Commit your way to the lord;
trust in him and he will do this;
He will make your righteousness
shine like the dawn, the justice of
you cause like the noonday sun.
Psalm 37:5-6

Feeling....Fresh

So long never write my blog, the last time still say that try to keep daily update...hai. OKie now let do it one shot.

Started on Wen, wake up in the midder of noon time cos nothing to do then slack here and there for a while then go to the stupid and far away school lor sux....nothing much to say on that day.

PAI SEI, what did i do cannot remember la so long liao??? Yap should be slacking at home too lor since I had that stupid cast on my hand I dont want to go anywhere lor, cos if I am hot I will sweat la then feel very uncom on my left hand lor. At night when to buy some snack then wait for lester to bring back my bike to me. everything should be okie now all I think, but may be need to touch up with the paint work lor. Now cannot used elec start cos the light eat alot of elec so can only used kick start.

Fri, same when to the stupid school today even worst the leacture say every singler word from the Powerpoint slide that was also given to us and I read it during my way to school. It a really wast of my time for that lesson. Okie after that took a bus home for the frist time on the way home I recieve a news that sis sally mom die too....

Sat, the wedding day of a hot chick from my church haha. when to church at 1 to help up lor. wedding is always nice to see, so happy when they way down the road togethere.
Woo a lot of hot chich was there to the SIA chick la. After that attend the Edge, warren brought 11 guy and gal from the Bball team, only one truly recieve the lord thank god. At night went to funeral service of sis sally mom, slack there, take nonsence nad play games till morning 2.30 then go home, haha a lot of funny thing happen and also the first time that amanda try to drive a merc to buy coffee and what a ride that will scared us to die.

SUNDAY, happy day wake up at 1, later brought my dad to buy a new HP then go church lor, speaker I forget his name I got a problem in remember name but any way he say that he is here to bless people to become a million_air lor hai so easy mai how long can that last right. Anyway just listen lor. After service again go to funeral service, at 9 walk with abi and jos to mrt then go home chane and went back to the funeral service this time stay till 5.30 then go home, want to sleep for a while then go back again for the burial but wake up at 1 in the noon time and that is today MONDAY LOR>>>>>

MONDAY, nothing much la, after finish this blog I will go to school again to suffer there and then tonight watch the tv programme that I rec at 7 and 9, after suf net and sleep again lor........PLUS go and start and warm up my TW200....

Because Jesus himslf suffered when he was tempted,
he is able to help those who are being tempted.
Hebrews 2:18

Feeling....Sian Yaaaa

Since friday night, sat and sun most of the time I spent in church lor. Friday night help to backup with max in worship then later after youth go for a drink lor.

Sat noon time when to downttown east cos james and all the rest are there but didnt stay for bbq cos want to spent more time with max they all cos they are leaving in sunday. Therefore left at 4 plus then went to the edge. The edge is getting bigger and bigger lor, like more and more people come to it, that is one good news lor. After the edge we all went to jackson for dinner and slack there lor, went we are about to go vera come and join us so slack for a little while again la.

Sunday woo is sunday school time again and is my little princess birthday but didnt bring my D cam to take pic sian. Lunch time is at suntec and after that when to buy present for max, bought him cross pen then go back to church. After service, we went opps to have dinner then meng huat drive max,raju,kelvin and me to goldenmile
we slack there for a while cos is too early when we reach there.

Today just came back from hospital, doc day that only need to see him in 1 mth time to take out the cast and do my last x-ray. he say that I dont need a ops cos ops also cannot make anything better. He say that there is still a little broken bone but ops dont ops also NVM hai just pray la what to do. Sian YAAAA 1 mth with that stupid cast earrrrrrr.

jesus said,"since you have kept my command
to endure patiently, I will also keep you from the
hour of trial that is going to come upon the whole
world to test those who live on the earth,"
Revelation 3:10

Feeling....Peaceful

Yesterday went to my insurance company pass to the all the medical bill and MC, see what I can claim from them lor. Wa hospital bill is not cheap lor my pocket burn liao hai... Then went to library to return and borrow some book lor. All the medicine make me drossy so after that went home to slack again lor. Sleep and sleep that all I can do.

Now is 3.30pm in the noon time, I just wake up at 2, took my medicine now still feel very sleepy again. Through this accident, I learn that some time people say that when they are going to die before they die they will quickly say the sinner paryer but you know not all had the chances to say that, during my accident the next thing I know was that I am on my way to hospital. If I was not on the way to hospital but I died, I dont think that I will had the chance to say my sinner paryer.

Maybe is the accident or the impact, I still feel that my brain is not working very well. I still got that kind of blur blur feeling lor. But I feel more peaceful now, I still got a lot of thing need to settle after the accident and I believe the GOd will help me throughout this time of trouble. I realise that we should no blame or ask God why this and that happend to us, but we should bear the responsible ourself.

The Lord your God will bless
you in all your harvest and in
all the work of your hands,
and your joy will be complete.
Deuteronomy 16:15

Feeling...HOT TEMPER

Today before I go to SGH to change my cast, I went to make a police report. I just remember that the policeman told me to make a report went I discharge from hospital but that day I cannot remember anything that why I today then make a report.

After that I went to SGH to change my cast to a plastic one and doc say that it will be with me for 6 weeks wa sian so sad.

Sometime I ask God, why did you help me to buy such a cheap bike cos I need a transport to study yet I meet such a stupid accident that I cannot ride for 2 month and still need to face the fine and deduction of my point, then what is the point for me to buy that bike. I just cannot understand lor. The medicine make me sleepy and all the things make my temper goes so high that one day I will blast out.

Since after my army life so many things happenend to me, sometime I really feel so down, useless, hopeless and aimless, thing that I planned is like not going that smooth. After settle my personal problem then I cannot find a perm jobs then I miss by one day to apply for my part-time degree course then I wanted to book driving lesson is all full book(need to wait of 1 to 2 month), manage to got my FSM course then found out that 2 of my friend cannot make it and only left me alone, bought a bike for transport still met a stupid accident which i myself cannot even remember what happened during that time and all I know doc say that I cannot ride for 2 month some more i might be charge for rackless riding need to pay fine and minus point, all the medicial bills is so exp and I still need to pay for cost to repaire my bike and now I cannot even work therefore no income liao, sucks right!!!!!!!!!! What is happen to me? In poly or army I did so well, why am I going through this kind of shit, I really dont understand.

GOD for this past 5 month, I had been through so many thing, I am so tired, even I might be very strong but one day I will fall. Everything seem not working well and not as what I planned. How long will this kind of life goes on......

"I know the plan I have for you," declares the Lord,"
plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and future."
Jeremiah 29:11

Feeling....super sian

From monday till now I did not do much thing, cos most of the time I had been laying down on my bed(sleeping la) because of the medicine lor. I had been sleeping for 14 to 16 hours per day for the past two day. The rest of the hours is mainly used to eat and shit that all.

I still havnt seen my bike yet but lester say that the conditions is bad lor, God help me! I also want to thank God for everything that he done. Even now my left hand is cast and got 4 stich but I still thank God for keeping me alive and I know that he wont let me suffer for no reason. Cos he got his plan for me.

Today I when to take out my stich and that all I do for the whole day lor. When I came back home haha again I lay on my bed and sleep again.

Tomorrow I am going to sgh to take out my cast and change to a plastic one then go to see my motor lor.

Wa the medicine is very strong and I am feeling very tired now...

The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your
needs in a sun-scorched land will strengthen
your frame. you will be like a well-watered garden,
like a spring whose water never fail.
Isaiah 58:11

Feeling....sian

For the past 4 days so many thing happened to me. thursday after work went to me james they all for dinner and went to ktv till 12 den go home lor.

Friday morning went to church to teach, then after the service going to have lunch at M.S something happened to me. On the way to M.S I met an accident, I broke my left arm and a cut between my nose and lips. I was sent to SGH but I cannot remember what happend to me, maybe the impace that hit my head was too strong. The only thing
I can remember is that my helmet was all cover with blood. All the youth and lester came to hospital to see me. I got my left hand cast and 4 stich on my lips. Thank God that I was not hurt much but I still dont know what happened to my bike. After that amy sent me home.

On sat I went to the edge then later went to find amy peresent but didnt buy anything. Then met james and the rest for a few games of pool haha used one hand still can win not bad right. That was what I do for the day. My head still feeling very heavy dont know is it because of the medic or what la.

Sunday went to church took a cab down alone cos too many thing to bring down. I am teaching sunday school. I being to feel that all the kids accept me as their teacher and they all no a day will listen to me and talk to me even christable the most shy one also dare to talk to me nowaday. haha so happy.

After the church, youxing sent me to the place where I met accident and he told me what he know but i cannot remember anything that he told me lor. So went to buy amy and debbie present, attend their birthday party till 3. After go with the youth to play pool and later went back for 5 service.

That also ended my day. My head still feel very giddy. Thank God I used to use one hand to do thing so now my left hand cannot move I still manage to do all thing. But now cannot work and my course is going to start, how God please help me.

God guides the humble in what is
right and teaches them his way.
All the ways of the Lord are loving
and faithful for those who keep the
demands of his covenant
Psalm 25:9-10

Feeling....Thankfull

On tusday morning when i am on my way to work saw an accident in PIE the motorcyclist lay down on the third lane and cos a jam. after that the road was clear so I also pick up my speed when I reach 120 then suddenly my motor engine die wa I was shock lor. later I found out that is the petrol finish so this is also the first time I open my reserve tank and thank god that I manage to reach and after work it still can last to reach the petrol station.

After work when to met vincent, james and alson for a few games of billard and haha thank god I won most of the games. after that went to church to met jo, max, raju and warran to had dinner, that also ended my day.

Today at work was so shack lor, cos need to rush of all the work. I feel funny funny lor, why some people are so slow when doing work cos I finish 20 cabinet while the other guy only finish 8 see, we both are getting the same pay sometime I think why must I work so hard for sian right, that reminded me of the strory in bible about the worker that work in the morning and those working the noontime all getting the same pay now I know their feeling lor.

Just when I left my work place going to church, on the road it begin to rain and I pary to god haha the rain stop. Reach church then went with raju to buy the cake and bao for lite group. Today at LG we are celebrating max birthday and had a good time there. After that sent abi back and on the way back home CTE jam sian need to siam here and there and get out of the jam.

That is what I had done to day.

Let the beloved of the Lord rest secure in him,
for he shields him all the day long. and the one
the lord loves rests between his shoulders.
Deuteronomy 33:12

Feeling....slack

Wa nowaday I am so slack, so many day then write one time but I will try to write everyday lor. haha. From friday till now wa there are so many thing happend.

Okie let start from friday. I start work at 5.30 in the morning so very early I wake up then ride to work in the morning PIE was so empty so haha try my bike lor when I hit 120km/hr then I slow down lor. Works end at 1 then I when to church lor, on the way it rain and I become wet wet chicken and I also go and bang onto a lorry thank god is a slight touch only and nothing happened. I used the time I have to wash my bike cos is so dirty lor now after the wash it look cleaner la.

Left church at 8.30 when to met shasha, yatman and tee for coffee at bugis cos so long never see shasha that why we met up lor. We had a nice talk till like 10.30, slack there and listen to each other story lor. Feel so good man. After that when to met james, padi, alson, ah yong, lawrance, fong and ju ming at the pub below paradise center. Again slack there and talk till 2a.m, I got like 6 year never see lawrance so we had a good talk man. I did not eat dinner so I when to met lester for supper at kai toa curry rice then when home and sleep at 4.30a.m

But on sat 8 a.m I was wake up by raj cos his bike spolit and want me to help me so after 3 and the half hours of sleep only I reach his at 8.30 a.m. Sian arrrr not enough sleep. I really for the whole day lor,
1) sent him to ah boy to buy spark pluck cable then sent him back.
2) go with him to motorshop to repair his bike
3) go with him to ah boy again to buy battery
4) when back to motorshop to service my bike( that bad luck raj also cos my bike to break down after lend him my battery)
5) when to church for the edge
6) go to eat at the indian shop after the edge.
7) when to tequila mama at boat quay met panda, beng tuan, tee, ah quek and his cousin(wa not bad look quite chio lor)
8) high high ride back home and sleep at 3 a.m

At the pub is nice to play lor but the KTV suck cos reception is poor lor. Slack there and talk for the whole night. 2 of my brother are having so many problem and troubler now hope that god will help them. The chicks there are very friendly, dare talk and dare play haha not bad quite fun lalalalala.

Sunday attened the 10.30 service. after that went to bras pasar to buy nat birthday and had our lunch there, the number is small got max, cas, amos, linda, jere, josia, kenneth and me. The stupid kenneth go and help amos and jere to buy some alcohol fruit tast drink. At first max and me didnt know and we also try the drink, we only found out that is alcohol when amos face got so red.

Afte that when back to 5p.m service, but I stay at the sunday school and later dinner at the indian shop again, sent jere home and make my way back.

Today is monday, blue blue stated went to work feel so sian everyday do the same thing I want to some thing different. Now start thinking of doing some business lor, I think next time when I work perm job what will happened if I keep on doing the same thing again and again. Today after work went to met lester to buy headlight, side light, hander bar and forke for my bike going to do some mod on sat. after that went to raj house test his bike teach him how to start his bike. Max and raju was also there slack and talk for a while and after that sent max home then now writing this long long blog la.

okie nite nite time to go bye.

" A man's heart plan his way,
But the Lord directs his steps."
Proverbs 16:9

Feeling....woo siong siong

Okie I am took slack lar for not write so long but I will update one la. So I will start with sunday blog.

Peaceful sunday, I went to the 10.30 service, who preach I forget, preach what I also forget, sorry. Nevermind la after the service, we went to PS for lunch, I was kick out of the car and need to take bus. All thanks to youxing hongster humph. At PS we book 4 table had our lunch, peach tower and fellowship till 3+. We also bought pris present a very nice cushion, shape of a pink moon with a little bear hugging it.

After that, some people just wanted to rush to other place. but I dont care and I make sure that I know where are they going to before I left cos after Ps we are spite into smaller group and I feel that I need to know where they are going before I go.

Youxing, kenneth, nat, shan, gloria, linda and me went macmaster to play pool but poor sham underage so cannot go in and we left her and linda in the land shop play gunpow.
After the pool, I walk with gloria back to her house then went to goodwood park hotel to met all my relative for a buffer dinner.

The food is nice and after the food also ended my day...

PAI YI and PAI ER

Nothing special to me, same I went to work at jurong then after for the 2 night I meet lester to look for bike so for that 2 night he had been driving me around to source for bike. We went a few place but the price was not that good so too bad 2 night we ended with dinner and go home.

WEN

This is a special to me cos in the morning I went for an interview but I feel that it turn out suck lor. hai sian nevermind la God will plan for me I believe. After the interview I bought luch home and newspaper. Through it I call a bike shop and he had the bike I wanted at a very low price I really thank God for that. So I wake lester up from his beauty rest and go and see bike with me. OKIE the bike price was reasonable so haha I bought it, My first bike a TW200 born in 1993 cos me $920. After added in all the insurance and other stuff is $1270. Hai that not all I bring the bike to service and change alot of stuff cost another $128 and bought I hemlet for $30. wa spend alot right but think back still wanted to thank God cos if I bought the same bike from other shop it will cost me even more than this amount and now I got the bike with lesser cost than I can used the money to mod my bike to the patten I wanted. haha

TODAY

After work know that Raj also wanted this bike therefore I also wanted to bless him with this new that I also found for him a TW200 at $1130 it might be 200 more than me but that bike condition is better lor. Therefore he also bought the same bike today.
I ended the day by picking up max to church for dinner with raju and nat....