The Lord your God will bless
you in all your harvest and in
all the work of your hands,
and your joy will be complete.
Deuteronomy 16:15

Feeling...HOT TEMPER

Today before I go to SGH to change my cast, I went to make a police report. I just remember that the policeman told me to make a report went I discharge from hospital but that day I cannot remember anything that why I today then make a report.

After that I went to SGH to change my cast to a plastic one and doc say that it will be with me for 6 weeks wa sian so sad.

Sometime I ask God, why did you help me to buy such a cheap bike cos I need a transport to study yet I meet such a stupid accident that I cannot ride for 2 month and still need to face the fine and deduction of my point, then what is the point for me to buy that bike. I just cannot understand lor. The medicine make me sleepy and all the things make my temper goes so high that one day I will blast out.

Since after my army life so many things happenend to me, sometime I really feel so down, useless, hopeless and aimless, thing that I planned is like not going that smooth. After settle my personal problem then I cannot find a perm jobs then I miss by one day to apply for my part-time degree course then I wanted to book driving lesson is all full book(need to wait of 1 to 2 month), manage to got my FSM course then found out that 2 of my friend cannot make it and only left me alone, bought a bike for transport still met a stupid accident which i myself cannot even remember what happened during that time and all I know doc say that I cannot ride for 2 month some more i might be charge for rackless riding need to pay fine and minus point, all the medicial bills is so exp and I still need to pay for cost to repaire my bike and now I cannot even work therefore no income liao, sucks right!!!!!!!!!! What is happen to me? In poly or army I did so well, why am I going through this kind of shit, I really dont understand.

GOD for this past 5 month, I had been through so many thing, I am so tired, even I might be very strong but one day I will fall. Everything seem not working well and not as what I planned. How long will this kind of life goes on......